Oh boy oh boy oh boy!!!

This Century + Good Charlotte + San Francisco = AMAZING NIGHT!!

Well I don't really listen to Good Charlotte anymore.... but totally stoked about This Century!

I'm hoping to go see them again, but San Francisco is too dangerous to drive in and I get motion sickness pretty easily (meaning no trains!!), so I'm still not sure if I'm going to go, but I sure hope I can!
March 25th in SF!! Get your tickets or see when they're coming to a town/city near you here:
http://bit.ly/ieeVD7

I feel empty,,,

Just those to words put together made my heart sink... and you know what's worse? Walking with you to meet her.

But I'm doing fine. I can breathe. I'm alive.
I won't cry over this. I can deal. Let me just walk and walk and walk to my hearts content because walking is better than moping around and telling myself that I am such an idiot.

At least I was taught something out of all of this....
The lesson? I should act on my feelings more quickly and not be afraid of rejection.

I was about to post a blog, but now I don't want to.

It's just that.... everything has changed between math club guy and I. He takes forever to text back, and he hardly ever replies. Maybe it's not him. Maybe it's me.

Everything feels like it's moving too fast. Like everything is changing at once, and I'm just caught in the undertow.

I don't mind the change, but it's just going too fast for me. I just want one more day where everything was normal. One more day where I could sit and talk with you without you having to go somewhere. And another day without math club guy avoiding me.

I guess it's too much to ask for now, isn't it?

Love this song, and starting to love this band. :) <3

"You told me I'd find someone new, and time after time I find my way back to you."

OH BOY!!!!

March 25th in SF!!! I hope I can go!!! :D

So happy about this...

Listen at: http://absolutepunk.net/showthread.php?s=48c838f0e7e5cef7266461a863054e47&t=2130332

I hate crying over the person I like.

It makes me feel like a weak little idiot who's in over their head.

I don't understand...

Why am I trying so hard to make this Christmas present extra special for you?
Why am I trying so hard to impress you when we barely just met?

All you'll say is, "Cool. Thanks! LOL"
Or something along those lines... just like you always do.

You make my heart sink. You make me want to cry. You make me want to punch myself in the face.

Also, I need to stop thinking about you in that way.

Derp

B: I'm too lazy to go [swimming]
and I don't have a car... still
M: haha
i'm sure if you ask
____ will take you
B:Nope
I'm not going to let him find out where I live
M: LOL
why not
B: Because
Then it'd be weeeeeird
M: how would it be weird?
B: I don't want him to know where I live
and my parents will ask questions
M: LoL
"whose that boy who picked you up"
"he your boyfriend"
haha
B: Haha
And other stuff like, "What about that Vietnamese guy who came over last time?"
And, "Is he Chinese?"
M: haha
B: and blahblahblah

Why'd he have to come up in our conversation? D:
(Mutual friend. Duh.)

Everytime I want to talk to you....

I tell myself not to because I know I'll just make a complete idiot of myself if I do. :)

Man I feel like crap.

This whole day my heart has been hurting for no apparent reason.
I feel like he's just a waste of my time now.
I feel like giving up.
I feel like a complete and total idiot for thinking there was something more.
I feel like everything I worked on building up is coming undone again.
I feel like I need a hug right now...

Grr... I also feel like punching myself in the face for crying over him already.
I really need to stop over thinking things.