Missing you.

I was looking at some of the posts I wrote about you.
The most recent ones were angry and complaints about you and your actions/words.

A month or two ago, it was about trying to get over you. More complaints and self pity and saying that I was "over you."

Three months ago was about the past and thinking of what could have been.

One of the blogs, the one titled "Remember when..." hit me straight and to the heart. Just reading a couple lines from it made me cry.
Why? Because I miss how you use to talk to me.
How you made me feel.

Now all I'm feeling is poop, and not the good kind.
I really miss feeling that way.

Liking someone and feeling like they may possibly like you in return.
Even though it was only two times (kind of), it was still.... nice.

Everything has become so complicated between us.
There will be no future for us except friendship, and that may not even last.
I feel like this is all my fault. Maybe opening up to you was a big mistake.
We don't talk like we use to.
This is the phase where I'm just asking questions and you respond, isn't it?
It's always going to be like that, isn't it?
That's what happened to Macken and I, so it's probably going to happen to us, isn't it?
I'm not making any sense, am I?
I should stop asking rhetorical questions, shouldn't I?