Lalalalala~

Too lazy to do my Physics lab that's due tomorrow, so why not write a real blog for once?
What's been going on in your life Belinda???
Well... nothing.

Everything feels like it's back to normal.

Today I took some time off and went to the park (like I usually do when I don't want to walk around school like a weirdo...)

When I got there though, there was a couple on the swing. I didn't bother going over while they were on it. Instead, I just sat and watched.... while eating Subway.
They were cute together. Instead of facing the playground, they faced the other way, towards the tree and light rail station and I guess the other half of the park...
At first they were swinging next to each other, but then the boyfriend got off and started to push his girlfriend. All cute until the guy started texting....
BUT THEN!!! The girl got off and told her boyfriend she wanted to push him (I'm guessing this of course...), so he gets on and she pushes him.
After a while, he hops off and they walk away together hand in hand (I found it cute how the girl reached for his hand instead of the other way around, but I think that's how it always is.....)
Once I finished my sub, I walked over to the swing and swung myself (dur...).
It felt a bit lonely, but doing as they did, facing the trees, made me feel happy. Like I could fly away. Pretty poetic, right? Well... there's nothing really else to add, but in that moment I was happy.... until my wallet fell out of my pocket.... and when I got off because my stomach started to feel weird.

Anyways. Here's what I thought when I was at the park:
I need to work harder if I want to graduate in 4 years with my BS/BA in Mathematics
I don't think that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with that guy
I'm still not ready to date (or is it that I'm too scared to date?)
Swinging is fun
I am too scared of heights to be swinging so high
I wish someone else was there with me.
It scares me everything could have changed if I told him I liked him
He deserves to be happy
The sky still looks weird when you're swinging and looking up
I want ice cream, but I feel too full to eat anything else
Little kids make me feel like an old fart
Will I ever be a good parent?
Do I really want to be a teacher?
What will I do after college?
How is everything going to be like in the future?
Will I ever find the one?

Yeah... I don't think everything is "back to normal" anymore. I'm love-sick and everything seems bland half the time.

I don't want to live my life going through the motions.